save me
i ingested christ last nite.
we had communion & i haven't been able to think much on anything else. i remember pondering heavily the events of my life the moments that led up to the taking of the cup & bread. i considered not participating, just because of the seriousness of doing so in an unworthy manner.
i proceeded w/caution & now reflect on the importance of the act as the only thing that can save me. i've taken my portion from the table for some 28 yrs now & i don't think that it's ever been this significant to me before. sad, i know.
you see, i guess that i'm like a lot of folks that commit wrongs...
i beg, seek & strive for forgiveness...
i want to be made whole again & be wholly accepted again...
to be made warm & snuggly in the awesome embrace of the mighty arms of my father...
i know that he does so whenever i ask it...
it's just that...
i'm not always as ready to forget...
the past, my failures, my screwups, my ignorant motives...
i know that he forgives & accepts...
i'm just not so sold on myself...
when it comes to myself...
so,
as i felt the bread in my mouth & experienced the wine down my throat...
i prayed that it truly be the flesh & blood of christ...
the only thing that can save me from me...
my heart has belonged to the king for some time now...
my head, flesh & bones remain a different story...
save me...
i don't care how you do it...
save me...
from me...
we had communion & i haven't been able to think much on anything else. i remember pondering heavily the events of my life the moments that led up to the taking of the cup & bread. i considered not participating, just because of the seriousness of doing so in an unworthy manner.
i proceeded w/caution & now reflect on the importance of the act as the only thing that can save me. i've taken my portion from the table for some 28 yrs now & i don't think that it's ever been this significant to me before. sad, i know.
you see, i guess that i'm like a lot of folks that commit wrongs...
i beg, seek & strive for forgiveness...
i want to be made whole again & be wholly accepted again...
to be made warm & snuggly in the awesome embrace of the mighty arms of my father...
i know that he does so whenever i ask it...
it's just that...
i'm not always as ready to forget...
the past, my failures, my screwups, my ignorant motives...
i know that he forgives & accepts...
i'm just not so sold on myself...
when it comes to myself...
so,
as i felt the bread in my mouth & experienced the wine down my throat...
i prayed that it truly be the flesh & blood of christ...
the only thing that can save me from me...
my heart has belonged to the king for some time now...
my head, flesh & bones remain a different story...
save me...
i don't care how you do it...
save me...
from me...
posted by lee at 10:24 AM
4 Comments:
I have often wondered what is looks like. we need to put a face on some things. faith in action, humility, freakish desire, unleashed obedience, complete willingness.
I wonder what Paul looked like. short fat guy with a bald head, ugly teeth and gnarly feet.
I see jesus in you. in your words, I hear Him in your voice.
look behind yourself sometimes when you walk down the halls of your employ. for I am sure you will see the Holy Spirit in your tracks.
through you, he blesses me, draws me and inties me.
for being a willing vessel of clay...thanks
I read this. Lee, sometimes I don't know how to comment, but I have never once read a post by you that did not touch me in some way and this one may even change me..especially in the way that I view communion.
you guys are awesome...
a cool drink when my throat's parched...
blessings...
pure blessings...
thank you...
Hey brother,
You rock. Great psot. I miss you man. Hope all is well.
Love to the family
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